Inside the Mind of a Demented Chick..

      “Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep… wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you’re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you…. The one who turns to his friends and says, ‘that’s her.’”

FALL is the operative term.
Not walk, leap or glide but FALL.
It denotes plummetting from height,
landing with a thud. Incurring welts and bruises.
Thats why it called FALLING-in-love~
you could wind up mamied, or dead..~
~Kei~

It pisses-me-off the fact of life that on the day you look fabulous, you will not run into the person who causes, your pulse rate to break the sound barrier.
The day you look like somone who just got out of a plane, thats when you see the person, Events conspire to present you to you’re beloved in d worst possible way.
~Kei~

Cycle of Love-Death (its the same thing..)(is it?)

[well you'll be the judge of that..]

DEATH is supposed to have stages- anger, denial, fear, bargaining, acceptance (excuse me if i got the sequence wrong; the stages of death are no interest to me, as i have decided that i will not die ..(//.^) Hehe.)

DENIAL. "Nothings wrong we’re very happy "

FEAR. "If you leave me, I will die well, maybe not. I’ll have a nervous break down…ahh! too corny..I’ll enter the monestary.."

BARGAINING. "If you stop obssessing about you hair, I promise not to roll my eyeballs everytime you try to convince yourfelf that suffering makes you grow as a person"

ANGER. "Get the hell out of my house, you scumbag! (you come around every now and then you said youre diffrent but youre still the same, why else would you come here as scumbag on a mission,…GREEN DAY..hehe..wah so i got a little carried away with the song..so what?!)"

ACCEPTANCE. "Its definitley over" the final stage, of course is

EMBARRASSMENT as in "What the hell was i thingking? What possesed me, to associate with that guy that had a rotten excuse he calls "a face" And you fall inlove again, and then you take it (again) from the top! (//.^)" based from personal experience Hehe..(//.^)

~Kei~

Many strange things are done in the name of love.
People drink poison, hurl themselzes off-tallbuildings,
get expensive make-overs & commit murder among their acts.
These may stike the casual observer as..”insaine”
but to the person inlove, they make perfect sence.

~Kei~

At High School I…

I laughed 

I cried

I got drunk

I puked

I became a jack-ass (with my friends)

I said a lot of pointless stuff (is this considered one?)

I pissed-off a teacher

I pissed-off a friend

I pissed-off my parents

I daydreamed I took over the world

I wish I wasn’t this damn gorgeous

I was just kidding

I wished I killed… Ship Wreck

I tried to kill myself

I wish I did..

I was kidding again!

I made friends

I made fcuk’n enemies

I got punk’d by my friends

I became the friction in his jeans

I became unfaithful to a guy (before!)

I became more rebellious

I learned how to love

I got hurt

I learned how to heal a wounded heart

I learned how to forgive

I learned how to love again

I learned how to write kick-ass-punk-songs!

I became numb.. for a while..

I learned how to love again despite the

scar sliced by a certain fcuk’n guy

I wasted a year and a half, loving a guy

who does not give a damn about me,

Maybe he does as a freak’n friend! That is!

Now I also don’t give a damn for him! 

D*ck face!!!

Sorry for that…

I just had a fcuk’n good time

in high school…that’s that..!!!

              -Kyrie-

                This SuCk’s I Don’T WaNna GraDuaTe!!!~ I don’t wanna leave my friends..I cant imagine how long I would last without a waking moment without them! I feel like, time is so..like..bitin! I cant belive na bukas na! Graduation Namin..                     paking sheet naman oh! Ayoko pa talagah! I feel kasi na kulang talaga ang oras,hindi ko pa pinagsawaan ang high school!!!!!

I still have a lot of things I wanna try like..erRm.. well a lot! I cant even think of one! Haha. *sigh* like what Keno’s quote said.. ”Life is a one way road.. and you cant go back..” Hayyy.. Sanay ma ulit muli.. Nothing I’m just so pissed-off cuz I’m already graduating and there’s nothing i can do about it…

Bitter-sweet Migraine

Kyrie eleison

Never thought I’d say this

But I’m missing you

But don’t wanna think about you

Don’t want thoughts of you

Cuz it makes me feel all

Weird inside,

As if my guts are exploding

You’re almost out of my mind,

Dunno how, dunno why,

Why cant I sleep at night

Your voice keeps,

echoing inside my head

“Promise, I will dance

with you at the prom”

As the days left,

As high school slowly says

“Sayonara”, my heart slowly

Falls I need marijuana ^_^’

Think the last phrase

Was a bunch of crap?

My feelings for him too is a bunch of crap,

To think that I could have given

Him my love, I told myself…

”Think again!”

Now I don’t give a damn for him,

Or do I?? *sigh* what a weird

thing for a person like me to say,

right? Hay.. if he only knew!!

Melancholy, or is it?

Longing? Is it not?

Love caught me completely of guard

I thought he has something there inside of him, for me..

That only shows it was just really a thought, a mere guess..

The ol’ saying

    “a lot died with a wrong           

          idea”(ganun bay un?)

[Madaming namatay sa maling akala]

A felling I cant explain,

just like migraine inside my mind dominated by chaos,

in my miss-shaped heart, that’s hard as a rock.

This headache is getting worse.

A felling I can’t put in words.

Just like his feelings for me forever unknown..

What is going on? In my freack’n head??!!! I cant tell..

Weird no give a comment I would really appreciate it

Question:

Kyrie when will you ever start to act your age?

Answers:
The way I see it I am not in a hurry to grow up. Yes i have matured and conduct myself as such, but i do not want all the responsiblity of being an adult already. I want to be able to relax, have fun with my friends, and just worry about me for another while longer. I can have a family and take care of them later, right now i want to live life just goofing off..

Broken specks..

           You may not notice it but my eyeglasses are cracked. On each side, There’s a crack.. you just cant see it well, but up-close…yikes..you can see it ever so clearly..

You wanna know the reason why? Well.. I was playing basketball w/ my classmates and yes, I’m the only girl playing, (astig noh? Akala mo kung sinong magaling mag basketball) but still I try, ever so hard to master the freak’n game..i just enjoy basketball, duh! ‘cuz every time I watch a game, the players are always alert as if they know what’s comi’n up next, its as if the game has been rehearsed or someth’n.. *sigh* I guess I have to try harder. Ok back to when I we were playing, I was about to get the ball for a rebound, but sa kasamaang palad the ball hit my freack’n face..my freakishly cute *eheemm* (Kapal!!)face.. and I was wear’n my glasses that time.. aahh..!!! I went wild for a sec. but smiled in relief with the thought,…

                        “yeehahayyy.. new glasses for me”

            Then we continued the game.. haha..i just dunno why, I enjoy hanging out with guys especially in sports… well maybe the fact that they treat me like a princess, you know the feeling of being surrounded by guys who are gonna give you the hold of the game, on  just the count that you’re a girl, jeje… the guys I hang-out with are cool, they don’t Chansing2x me (whata word), they respect me as a girl.

Let me share my observations on how different guys         are  from girls

            When I hang-out with my girlfriends, I observed that girls are really blabber mouth’s, (as if I’m not like that too) we enjoy talking about other people, other girls to be precise.. and I thought ofit for quite a while, that girl who like to talk about other girls(gossiping) are signs that, that girl is insecure of herself that’s why, she hit’s on the insecurities of others..i’m not a psychologist or someth’n but I’m just sharing stuff on my own point of view..

            Guys, are more straight forward, they also gossip like us girls but not all the time, they like to talk about porn, jejeje.. that’s true they love to talk about that,. They also love to talk about sports I mean who doesn’t, they love bets (pustahan), yep, they enjoy it, even for a game of basketball, they bet on who’s gonna win, and the winners eats lunch for free..

Yap, (James

Yap

hihih..)

those are guys, happy go lucky. But what I like about guys, that some girls don’t have, is that their attitude of bei’n serious if you tell them that you’re serious they automatically get it, that’s when they talk to you more seriously…some girls have to like…you have to hit ‘em in the head with a bat before they would get it that you’re really serious now,. that had been my problem for quite a while now, ‘cuz you pruobly know me as a childish girl, always smile’n, but when the time comes that I act serious, some take me for granted and most of them are girls, guys completely get it when you start to act all dramatic. .whaahh…post a comment pls..so that I could know that someone is actually reading my freak’n blog…!!!